These are disciplines I feel God directing me.
I have spent the past few years devouring many books, articles, podcasts and sermons. While stimulating and inspiring, I found myself mentally and emotionally bloated by all the information.
I wasn’t experiencing a great deal of intimacy with my Heavenly Father, and came to a place of real homesickness.
When I had a question or felt a weakness or struggle within, I would pull up desiringGod.org and type it in the search bar.
While I was active in ongoing conversation with God, there wasn’t a lot of “God, I’m sensing this thing, what do you think? where should I go in your Word to learn about it?”
And there definitely wasn’t any sitting in silence for more than 2 minutes.
I was getting flustered too easily. I was feeling overwhelmed almost 24/7. My mind felt cloudy. I felt I had to climb over a bunch of unnecessary stuff (think junkyard piles) to be inspired by God or feel at peace.
Mental and soul rest were not even on my radar.
But eventually, I became desperate.